Not quite sure if it's the coffee and chocolate combo at 4pm talking: but i'm facing a panic attack + latent stress buildup (coined that up). No visible manifestations of the syndrome like appetite loss, weight loss nor sleep loss. Instead, it's all hidden and bottled up, manifested in the forms of peculiar dreams where dreadful things happen, constant fear of inadequacies, though i'm nearly 100% through 1st round of studying - which is a first in these 3 years.

There are 11 full days left - which should be ample for round 2 of mugging - where facts have now got to be crammed into the head. Notes that i have been preparing since last December, all stored up in the arsenal, which have to be dusted.

List of possible items to take:
1. Sedatives
2. Memory Mega-Boosters
3. "Quick Sleep Quick Rise"
4. "Good Sleep"
5. Concentration Enhancers (10 straight hours, barring lunch is still not good enough)

OK. Turning into hypochondriac. But it is not unfounded. Although I should stress that it is all perfectly self-inflicted, so I probably could tell myself to pull out the plug, and switch back to laze around mode, but events aren't going my way.

1. Turned in a couple of essays and examiners were particularly nit-picky. 1hour/essay is not going to be sufficient to write tons. Nor is it enough to write everything you taught plus everything you ask me to read plus everything i read independently. No time. No brain capacity. I cannot cram lecture notes + recommended reading + self-discovered extra reading. OK. I can. And i shall do just that.

I shall end this highly charged post with this fantastic maxim that me and hy coined years back (OK that makes us sound old. But honestly how old can i be?)

"I'm an A student, and i know it."

Good isn't it? Not a good time to let self-confidence to falter.

Enough typed. Back to work. 3 essays every Sunday will now be upped to 5 essays every Sunday. Sufficient to make my hand go into spasms.